The Bible in a Year Program (from Ascension Press)

 On New Year’s, I started the Bible in a Year reading program from Ascension Press (Fr, Mike Schmitz & Jeff Cavins). I did this once before, in 2021, when it first came out.   I do not listen to Fr. Mike’s podcasts. I only read the texts.  I know from experience that when I listen to audio podcasts, my mind wanders, and I miss most of it.  On the other hand, if I am interested in a subject, I can read very intensely and retain an enormous amount of content.  

In this, my 2nd time reading the BIY, I am noticing patterns, recurring images and themes, and connecting sections between different books that I did not notice the first time through reading the BIY. I am also more deeply comprehending the details of who, what, where, and why.  

I have sampled several Fr. Mike’s podcasts, and for me, doing the reading alone is the best method of learning.  At the risk of sounding haughty, as a well-catechized and well-read Catholic who attends Mass regularly, I can see and understand the theology that naturally flows from scripture. 

Moreover, I am using the Catholic Study Bible, 3rd edition, which includes a reader's guide that has hundreds of pages of background and overview information about scripture in general and each of the sections and books in the Bible. Over time, I am gradually reading the reader's guide and finding it informative.  

This is NOT meant as a negative criticism of the podcasts.  Doubtless, the podcasts fill an enormous need and desire, and thank God that Fr, Mike has put the Bible into a medium which makes it more palatable to the learning styles of millions of people.

Sinners in the Hand of an Angry God?

Instead of assuming the common mentality of the God of the Hebrew Bible as an angry, punitive God, one might instead ask, Why did Israel engage in idolatry and other serious sins for so long? Contrary to being angry and punitive, the God of the Hebrew Bible is more merciful than not. When Israel strays into idolatry, it is usually an extremely long time before God punishes. No parent would ever be so patient with a child who has been doing serious wrong for so long. However, as the Bible shows, God is slow to anger and always accepts repentance.  But after long periods, with no repentance forthcoming, especially from leaders who should know better, God did react with punitive anger. He or others acting for Him killed, enslaved, conquered, starved, deported, or inflicted diseases on many of the Hebrews. The message for us is to follow Jesus and repent.

A Book Review: The Great Gatsby (1925), by F. Scott Fitzgerald

Most people know the story:  Set in 1922, Nick Carraway, a young bond salesman who works on Wall Street, moves into a small house next to a huge mansion, owned by Jay Gatsby, on Long Island, along the north shore of Long Island Sound. Everyone suspected Gatsby of acquiring his wealth from illegal activities, possibly as a bootlegger. 

Gatsby tells various lies, half-truths, and misleading information about his background.  Most people assume he is a liar, and most don’t care.  However, as the non-judgmental Nick gets to know Gatsby, he seems able to ferret out what stories about Gatsby are probably true and which are probably false.

Jay Gatsby is in love with a woman, Daisy, who is married to Tom Buchanan. Tom and Daisy, from privileged backgrounds, have a troubled relationship.  We don’t know why they don’t divorce, but I wonder if it is because they married for reasons of money and class. Tom is having an affair with a woman named Myrtle Wilson, who is married to a poor, clueless man named George Wilson.  George loves his wife dearly and doesn’t know she is having an affair. Myrtle has the utmost contempt for her husband, as does Tom.

The novel opens with:

In my younger and more vulnerable years my father gave me some advice that I’ve been turning over in my mind ever since.

“Whenever you feel like criticizing anyone,” he told me, “just remember that all the people in the world haven’t had the advantages that you had.”

…I’m inclined to reserve all judgments, a habit that has opened up many curious natures to me… 

A narrator shouldn’t need to emphasize to the reader that he is non-judgmental. However, this allowed Nick Carraway to ignore the rumors and assertions about Jay Gatsby and take him at face value.  It allowed Fitzgerald to show the good and the bad of Gatsby. I suppose it also explains why Nick Carraway doesn’t judge the married Daisy, Nick’s cousin, for getting involved with Gatsby. Even still, that surprised me. On the other hand, Nick knows that Tom and Daisy despise each other, and after all, she is only his second cousin once removed, which makes it less personal for Nick.  I suppose.

When F. Scott Fitzgerald neared completion of The Great Gatsby, he said: “I want to write something new–something extraordinary and beautiful and simple + intricately patterned.”  Academics consider the book a work of genius, and if not the best, one of the best American novels. I am not that impressed, but the narrative is intricately patterned.  I respect how the author provides information indirectly, forcing the reader to use their brain more. He inserts the reader into situations, then provides the necessary context and background information afterward, including using flashbacks. This keeps the reader wondering what’s happening, while teasing the reader onward. 

Fitzgerald’s images, where he places them, and how he uses them, are excellent. His imagery is not quite up to the level of those in Sylvia Plath’s The Bell Jar, but she was a poet after all.  Fitzgerald uses more abstraction and meta-language.  Plath uses fewer adjectives and adverbs but more vivid verbs. In The Bell Jar, Plath begins scenes regularly, with no transition from what happened before and no context.  Only afterward does she explain the context. I wonder if she learned this from Fitzgerald.  

Fitzgerald’s most blatant symbols are a bit corny and contrived.. The billboard advertisement with the famous, looming eyes of Dr. T.J. Eckleburg and the dump full of ash heaps in Corona are a bit too obvious.

No one would describe the book as a page-turner.  The gangsters in the book are nothing like the violent caricatures we see in fiction and movies today. Jay Gatsby seems well-mannered, cordial, and a nice guy.  I love the picture of the Jazz Age–the Roaring Twenties.  Jay Gatsby has parties almost every weekend, attended by hundreds.  And despite Prohibition, the liquor flows freely–any kind of liquor you want, and no one questions how or where it came from.

In the big picture, the novel is about pursuing the American dream. Gatsby had the money and all the materialistic trappings of success, but not the woman he loved.  George Wilson had a business that did poorly, with a wife, Myrtle, whom he loved dearly.  But Myrtle betrayed him. Nick Carraway, the narrator, represents a middle ground.  He makes his money the old-fashioned way–he earns it.  He lives within his means.  He rarely drinks. His love interest is not another married woman but Jordan Baker, a flapper and professional golfer.

In the end, someone murders Jay Gatsby and George Wilson. But who shot Jay Gatsby?  Ignore the movie adaptations–the moviemakers had to interpret, and the movies don’t necessarily present the same nuanced clues as the book.  

Judging by the evidence in the novel, I conclude that Wilson must have shot Gatsby. He was out of his mind with loss and grief over the loss of Myrtle from the hit-and-run accident, and he thought Gatsby was the driver.  But as to who shot Wilson, I suspect, with less certainty, that he turned the gun on himself. Without Myrtle, he had nothing and no one to live for.

Tom Buchanan had a suspected motive to shoot Gatsby and Wilson. Since Gatsby was pursuing Tom’s wife, at first, he seems to have had a motive to shoot Gatsby. However, given the state of their marriage, I don’t think Tom cared that his wife was having an affair.  But Gatsby annoyed Tom greatly.  As Tom was having an affair with Wilson’s wife, Tom Buchanan may have killed George Wilson to free Myrtle from him.  However, I’m not sure he had to go that far. He may have shot Wilson out of contempt, but that is a stretch.  Tom will resort to violence–at a party, he smacks Myrtle I'm in the face brutally, yet he doesn’t strike me as a killer. As an aside, little details like that show Fitzgerald’s genius. He knows readers will judge Tom, but he fleshes him out in a way that makes it harder to judge him.    

It is possible, but I suspect far less probable, that the gangster Meyer Wolfsheim had Gatsby shot, for reasons related to their joint criminal activities, and whichever of Wolfsheim’s men shot Gatsby may have also shot Wilson, possibly because he was a witness to the Gatsby shooting.  

Who do you think shot Jay Gatsby and George Wilson?

Book Review: The Diary of a Country Priest, by George Bernanos (1936)

This is considered one of the best French novels of the 20th century.

The unnamed diarist, a young priest filled with zeal, is assigned to a tiny church in rural France. The congregation is cynical and apathetic toward him, the church, and Christianity.  Many of the people he interacts with are hostile or insulting. He is morally scrupulous and is quick to accuse others of pride or blasphemy, which personally offends him.

Significantly, he is emaciated from an illness which he begins to fear might be tuberculosis. The symptoms are that he cannot eat or drink most foods without stomach pain. At least initially, it does not interfere with his job as a pastor. He doesn’t know it yet, but he has stomach cancer, and it will soon kill him.

In the seminary, he was a brilliant student, but people saw him as a poet and a dreamer, qualities not considered desirable in a priest. He explains that men from the better social classes end up in the monasteries, but priests like him, from peasant backgrounds, become Diocesan priests and are assigned to churches in the hinterlands. He is quite poor and relies partly on donated food and drink. His clothes are stained and patched.

As an inexperienced priest, he often seeks advice from a more senior priest at a neighboring church with whom he shares his frustrations. The advisor is more critical than supportive, including of his sickly appearance. He tells him his black coat makes him look like a German romantic poet, that he should start eating steaks, and try to put some weight on his frame. Our young priest can’t eat most solid foods because they cause stomach pain, but he never mentions this to his advisor. Wine is one of the few things he can drink, and combined with his gaunt and disheveled appearance, his parishioners think he is an alcoholic. They revile and ridicule him behind his back.

The young priest ruminates constantly over his inability to have a positive effect on anyone in the community. To make matters worse, his clerical superiors lecture him on the proper attitudes and behaviors when dealing with his flock.

At the midpoint of the narrative, the rebellious and insolent daughter from the chateau next door to the church approached the priest about a troubling situation regarding her father. The young priest needed to call on the chateau anyway, to discuss some trivial matter, and he used it as a pretext to speak with the girl’s mother, the contessa. It becomes an extended, dramatic, and confrontational scene between the two. The contessa is intensely angry and bitter, with no use for God, the church, or this young priest. She condescends, insults, and berates him. She tells the priest that she has no relationship with her long-spoiled, overly entitled daughter, that for years, her husband has been sleeping with every servant girl around, and worst of all, she had a son who died as a child and cannot get over his death.

Their exchange is not like that between a priest and a penitent in the confessional. Nor is it like she made an appointment to vent to a counselor. It is more like two knights who meet by chance in an open field and engage in combat. However, she does vent from the deepest emotional pain, and he does listen deeply and with the utmost compassion. With every expression of anger, every bitter utterance, in the face of insults being hurled at him, our young priest responds with a kind of verbal aikido. He takes each of her expressions of despair and turns them back onto her, but reframes them in a different way of looking at her situation, an alternate Christian message of hope. And in the end, it works. The remainder of the story is an equally dynamic and cascading series of extraordinary exchanges and epiphanies among the various characters.

As a reader who doesn’t know the French language or culture, the titles, names, and abbreviations were slightly challenging. Like some other readers, it took more than one attempt to get into the book, and then I read the novel twice to make sure I understood it. Some of the commentary and dialogue seem rather mindless or even abstract, and I wonder if they simply reflect the social pretensions of the time. In any event, the priest character was a saint. Outwardly, he did his job conscientiously, while inwardly, he was always humble and virtuous, always trying to do the right thing as a priest. Consumed with self-doubt and feelings of inferiority as a parish priest, he was nevertheless a conduit of grace to others. You may have to read the novel to understand this, but the dying words of our young priest are, “Grace is everywhere.”

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Book Review: Holy Moments, by Matthew Kelly

 Given that the ease of access to social media has enabled reviewers to condemn and reject things they do not understand, I am not shocked at how many have trashed this book. The world is in a pandemic of meaninglessness and hopelessness. The book is nothing more than an exhortation to act with Christian virtue, no matter how small the situation, for the sake of transforming the grassroots of society and thereby making the world a better place. Think of the Butterfly Effect: a single act of kindness (or love, charity, thoughtfulness, etc.) can change another for the better and start a chain reaction of more acts of kindness, some of which may magnify and have an even greater impact on others, which the originator never imagined. And you don't have to be Christian or of any faith to do so.  I know atheists who already believe in holy moments (though not necessarily by that name) more than many self-described Christians. We need people to understand that every virtuous act, however small, contributes to making a happier, just, and peaceful world.

Book Review: The Sign of Jonas, by Thomas Merton (1953)

A man driven to find God, Thomas Merton was a Trappist monk who entered Gethsemani Abbey in Kentucky in 1941. This journal recorded his thoughts and reflections from 1946, when he made his solemn profession of vows, to 1951, on prayer, silence, contemplation, writing, the Sacraments, and other Catholic rituals. During this period, he published his conversion story, The Seven Story Mountain, was ordained as a priest, and became a U.S. citizen. He also wrote or published Waters of Silo, New Seeds of Contemplations, and The Ascent to Truth. Toward the end of the journal, he emerges as a more senior monk and becomes responsible for the education of junior members of the monastery, as Master of Scholastics.

One reads Merton for his insights, wisdom, beautiful rhetoric, and poetic imagery. As with all journals, the author's entries hop abruptly from one haphazard subject to another and can make for a bumpy reading experience. As in many of his books, he comments on the Benedictine charism and monastic life, from both an experiential and an intellectual perspective. Along the way, he comments on various spiritual books of others and his desire to be a saint. He loves his life in the monastery and cites few struggles. With the enthusiasm of a convert, he can be scrupulous, prideful, or extreme in places.

The monastery grounds occupy 2,600 acres, with knolls, valleys, groupings of trees, a pond, and all the birds, bugs, and animals one would expect. It is also a working farm, with all of the barns and farming equipment to go along with it. Merton was the monastery’s forester and planted tens of thousands of trees. He knew all the different, local species of trees and how to cut, plant, and nurture them. Just think: the trees he planted would be about 75 years old today–huge, mature trees. I liked how Merton distinguished different species of birds by their songs. As one might expect from a contemplative, his observations of nature are subtle, and his descriptions of nature are beautiful and poetic, in a way that honors their creator.

Comically, when Merton submitted a draft of The Seven Story Mountain to the order’s censors, they rejected it while telling him he should take a correspondence course in English grammar. I say “comically” because he is one of the great writers of the 20th century, having published about 75 volumes of prose and a dozen volumes of poetry. The censor also scolded him for revealing too much of his not-so-saintly life before entering the monastery (this was the early 1950s). Rather than giving up or getting angry, Merton chose to view it as a challenge. Long after Merton’s death, it became known publicly that he had fathered a child out of wedlock in England, before entering religious life. In the journal, he subtly hints at this when he expresses a desire to maintain his spiritual virginity.

The title alludes to the quote from Jesus, “no sign will be given it except the sign of Jonah the prophet” (Mt 12:39), a reference to The Book of Jonah. In both the book’s brief epigraph and the lengthy, beautifully soaring meditation which is the epilogue, Merton cites the story of the reluctant prophet Jonah, swallowed by a whale, but then regurgitated, as representative of how he sees himself and his role as a monk, as both a prophet and one of the repentant men of Nineveh.

Book Review: The Women, by Hannah Kristin (2024)

 I just read Hannah Kristin's novel The Women. It is the story of a young nurse, less than a year out of nursing school, who enlists in the Army during the Vietnam War and spends two years working in evacuation hospitals in combat zones. The book is intended to illustrate the experiences of nurses during the war. It is a page-turner, and the author does an excellent job of showing the inner life of nurse Frances McGrath. 

PTSD afflicted nurses at the same rate as the male veterans.  Ten thousand women served in the military in Vietnam, and most were nurses. Their average was 23, and the average age of the soldiers they treated was 19.  Every day, six days a week, in-country, they worked 12-hour shifts, treating young American men whose limbs had been blown off, whose intestines were hanging out, or otherwise maimed horribly.  As if that were not enough, the Vietcong regularly attacked the hospitals and nurses' living quarters with rockets and mortar rounds.  

  

The public treated returning nurses the same way they treated returning soldiers.  They were not respected. No one wanted to know what they did, saw, or heard.  They were told to forget about it (as were the men). Parents assumed their daughters were the same naive and innocent persons who had left and expected them to resume their lives as if they had never been in the war. Most doctors, as well as the public, had never heard of PTSD.  Some civilians refused to believe that women served in the war.  And once people became aware of veterans with PTSD, because they served in hospitals and were not deployed in direct combat, many refused to believe that nurses could have PTSD.

For developing nursing skills, the quality of experience in a field hospital cannot be matched elsewhere. Nurses routinely performed many things only doctors did in the U.S.A. (e.g., tracheotomies and suturing patients after abdominal surgeries).  When they left the military, they were confident they could handle anything in the civilian world.

The book's historical and social background is accurate. It covers Frankie’s time in Vietnam and return to the U.S.A., which is equally important to understand.  I appreciated being reminded of the anti-war and civil rights movements and the other fashions, trends, and social changes from the 1960s.

The author did extensive background research before writing the book. Her purpose was to present the experiences of nurses in the war. She included examples of every kind of thing that happened to veterans during the period, but how many veterans experienced all of these things?  After Frankie returns to the U.S.A., some events are suspenseful and entertaining but excessive and overly dramatic. But overall, the book is a damn good read.

A Book Review: Breakfast at Tiffany’s (1958), by Truman Capote

 On first impression, Holly Golightly seems shallow and scatterbrained.  While she says things that are sharp, intelligent, and full of life, they don’t seem to follow any expected or logical pattern.  She lives in a brownstone apartment in Manhattan, on East 70th Street by Lexington Avenue, and her main antagonist and foil is the unnamed first-person narrator who lives in the apartment above her. Capote presents an idyllic ambiance of 1940s New York–Tiffany’s, landmark hotels, spacious apartments, and upscale neighborhood bars with the characters speaking in the euphemisms and vernacular of the period.

Holly is 19 and comes from a broken family in Arkansas. At fourteen, she married a widower, a middle-aged veterinarian from Texas, but ran away.  The beautiful Holly connects with well-off or influential men from every walk of life, age, and country of origin, but she always does something to make them flee.  But even after condemning and rejecting her, some part of each man still loves her and will help her if needed. 

For a while, the narrator takes Holly and her antics at face value, that is, without judgment or emotional reaction, until he gets fed up, snaps, and decides she is “a crude exhibitionist, a time waster, an utter fake: someone never to be spoken to again.”  Of course, like all the others. When he eventually gets over it, he too realizes he loves her.

Holly dreams of marrying a wealthy man with whom she will have many children. In describing how she copes with romantic failures, she says:  “Well, when I get it the only thing that does any good is to jump in a cab and go to Tiffany's. Calms me down right away. The quietness and the proud look of it; nothing very bad could happen to you there.  If I could find a real-life place that'd make me feel like Tiffany's, then - then I'd buy some furniture and give the cat a name!”  

She knows or quickly learns who and what she does not want in life; however, she isn’t stable or unconflicted enough to constructively pursue what she does want.  Having been on her own since childhood has forced her to develop a creative wit and certain behaviors as survival skills, but the same behaviors ruin every relationship.

In the narrative, note the recurrence of the image of a cage.  To one suitor, she says:  “You mustn't give your heart to a wild thing. The more you do, the stronger they get, until they're strong enough to run into the woods or fly into a tree. And then to a higher tree and then to the sky.”   Despite being desired by wealthy or powerful men, Holly does not want to be put in a cage.  Near the end, one of her male acquaintances, the mobster Sally Tomato opines, “Yes, she was a phony but a real phony.”  She is real for sure but destined to repeat the same behaviors over and over again.  

Capote’s light and easy style, plus endearing imagery, made this an enjoyable read.   The novel is a character study supported by a great setting, storyline, and narrative voice.  Holly’s dialogue made it the perfect subject for the movie and stage adaptations. Knowing it was famous, I tried to watch the movie once but found it boring and couldn’t follow it. However, now that I have read the book, I will try it again. 

Reading Habits

 When I was a child, my mother did not allow me to have comic books.  I had neighborhood friends who read comic books. Their parents bought them or gave them the money to buy.  Not my mother.  She did not consider them edifying. To her, they had no redeeming value.  She inherited this attitude from my grandfather.  Yet my mother never applied the not-edifying rule to watching cartoons or Superman on TV. 

Just as inconsistent, despite the sanction on comic books, my father always enjoyed reading “The Funny Papers” that came with almost every newspaper.  (What was my mother going to say to my father?)  Every Sunday after Mass, my parents bought the Sunday editions of the New York Times and the New York Daily News. The New York Times never had “funny papers,”  but the Daily News did, and their Sunday edition had a whole section for comics that I looked forward to reading, as did my father.  They had Dick Tracey, Joe Palooka, Li’l Abner, Little Orphan Annie, and everything else on down.

Being deprived of the pleasures of comic books, I was also never allowed to read science fiction for similar reasons. More to the point, I never knew it existed.  When my grandfather and mother were growing up, science fiction was generally considered pulp, that is, junk fiction.  O.K.--I get that.  However, on one visit to my grandparents’ house, on their small bookshelf, I discovered a book called 20,000 Leagues Under the Sea and a few other novels by Jules Verne. I sat on the living room rug and read 20,000 Leagues until it was time to go home. It was utterly fascinating.   

My grandfather also had a beautiful edition of Moby Dick, which I read cover-to-cover when I was 12.  He also had Silent Spring by Rachel Carson, which is on my bucket list to read. My grandfather also subscribed to Reader’s Digest, which I devoured. They used to have a section called “It Pays To Increase Your Word Power,” a vocabulary quiz. I did all the vocabulary quizzes, but my grandfather always got a perfect score.  He also had Robert Louis Stevenson’s Treasure Island and Daniel Defoe’s The Adventures of Robinson Crusoe on his bookshelf, which I also read.

I was never introduced to the literary genre of fantasy. Again, I was unaware that it existed. Nevertheless, like the paradox of comic books vs the funny papers and TV cartoons, my mother would plop me down in front of the TV every year to watch The Wizard of Oz.   

In high school, we read some John Steinbeck and Nathaniel Hawthorne, not to mention Edgar Allen Poe, Saki, Jack London, etc.--the usual adolescent boy stuff.  As an adolescent, on my own, I read every book I could get by Herman Hesse.   I started with Beneath the Wheel, then Damien, then about half a dozen others. My favorite novel is Hesse’s Steppenwolf.  I tried re-reading some of Hesse’s books in midlife and found they no longer resonated with me.  Se la vie. You have to read him in adolescence.

At some point in my life, I heard of The Hobbit and The Lord of the Rings Trilogy.  I knew they were popular among young people during the time I was in college, as were the books of Carlos Castenada, but I never ventured to read them. I only discovered The Narnia Chronicles after my two sons were born.  When my children were old enough to read, I asked my mother why she had never introduced us to the stories of C.S. Lewis or J.R. Tolkien. She shrugged and said she didn’t know.  I interpreted that to mean she never had an inkling that they existed or were exceptional. (Sorry, I couldn’t help the pun!).

Years later, my mother and father did watch the movie adaptions of The Lord of the Rings.   My mother always expressed awe for the creativity of great books and movies, including the movie adaptions of The Lord of the Rings once they came out, as she did for The Wizard of Oz from decades prior.

Of course, I haphazardly read many other books (Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance anyone?), including biographies and memoirs by various sports heroes (Instant Replay, for example), plus things like The Man Who Mistook His Wife for a Hat.     

In my twenties, I read every book by Thomas Merton (a Trappist Monk) I could find. A gifted spiritual writer, he was and is inspirational.  His essays on social justice, about the social justice movements of the 1960s, are exceptional but a little dated now. 

As a young adult, I discovered Louis L’Amour, a wonderful and entertaining author famous for writing (well-researched!) pulp fiction novels about the Old West.  Moreover, in a college literature class, I was introduced to the hard-boiled detective novel, which was also once relegated to the pulp, that is, junk literature category.  Somewhere in my young adulthood, I read A Confederacy of Dunces (not pulp fiction!), a unique and under-appreciated book. 

Today, I read a lot of nonfiction, especially American History, biography, autobiography, select religious or philosophical books, and the Bible. I rarely read self-help books. I will read memoirs of pop/rock stars (like Testimony, by Robbie Robertson) and movie stars (Madonna).

I like any good fiction.  If I were to imagine someone suddenly asking me to name a novel I have read, I would say The Life of Pi, because it’s different. I like style,  imagery, and a good narrative.  I’ll try any author, but I still don’t read science fiction or fantasy.  I tried reading The Hobbit and found it boring. I love a good detective novel, police procedural, or spy novel. So-called post-modern literature requires too much mental calistenics.  I love early-American literature–Washington Irving, James Fenimore Cooper, Edgar Allen Poe, and Nathaniel Hawthorne.  

I know there is a “Shit-ton” of excellent, literary women writers out there.  I just haven’t bothered to read any of them. I generally don’t read mid-listers.  I don’t bother reading horror, pure thrillers, or best-selling pot-boilers (Stephen King, James Patterson, John Grisham).  Though there are exceptions, they tend to be all form and no substance.  I prefer books with genuine human drama, existential dilemmas, exciting adventure, or unique writing style.  My grandfather would approve.

Words of Remembrance - Nicholas Sagliano, PhD (May 16, 1955 - Dec 1, 2022)

Nick and I first met at Cypress Road School, on the first day of kindergarten.  I was crying and miserable with homesickness.  Or teacher, Mrs. Miles gave up trying to console me and sat me down at a table.  A boy sat across from me putting together a wooden puzzle.  He told me his name was Nicholas.  He was not crying or upset, and I consoled myself by watching Nicholas calmly assemble that puzzle with confident, methodical resolve.   

At Sacred Heart grammar school, I had no idea what Nick’s grades were–I assume they were mostly ‘A’s.  But about seventh grade, a rumor spread that Nick had read the entire Encyclopedia Brittanica. The Sisters must have told Fr. Joyce because he came into our class with a goofy smile, asked where Nick was, and exclaimed to the class, “He read the whole encyclopedia!”  On the bus ride home, Nick volunteered to me that he had not read the entire encyclopedia, only a couple of sections. To his credit, I never, ever heard Nick brag, gloat, or try to take credit for something he didn’t do.  

By the eighth grade, Nick knew he wanted to become a chemist, a career choice he pursued with the same single-minded resolve with which he put that puzzle together in kindergarten.

From our class at Sacred Heart, eight of us went to Don Bosco Prep, including Nick, and in hindsight, we were a pretty smart bunch of guys.  Nick knew he was smart.  Once, while coming home on the bus, something possessed Nick to estimate each of our IQs.  He estimated his own IQ as very high, and I remember this because he ranked me about 10 or 15 points below himself.  I didn’t take offense, I just never forgot.  Characteristically, Nick did not rate himself as having the highest IQ.

Nick commuted to Manhattan college driving a Dodge Dart.  One day over lunch, at the McDonald’s on Hemion Road, Nick told me that his car had suffered a blown engine, and the cost of a new engine or to repair the old one was more than the car was worth.  Solely for the purpose of dramatic irony, I told Nick that, coincidentally, my sister Jean had been driving a Dodge Dart and had gotten into a wreck, and the estimate to repair the body and frame was more than the car was worth.  Nick questioned me about the engine.  Having been in an accident, he feared it was damaged or leaked oil.  I assured him the engine was undamaged and in perfect condition.  So I sold my sister’s car to Nick.  But here’s the thing:  Nick swapped out the engine himself, right on his parent’s driveway!  That blew my mind.  To him, it was just another kindergarten puzzle.

While Nick was in graduate school at Rutgers, he worked at Sears Automotive in Nanuet, swapping out batteries, tires, and whatnot.  Around that time, I bought a Radio Shack TRS-80 microcomputer.   I told Nick I was dissatisfied with it. It had no software. I couldn’t do much with it.  Nick expressed envy, telling me how much more productive he could be in the chem lab with a microcomputer.  So I gave it to him.  This was about 1978.   A year or two later, Nick expressed his gratitude and confirmed how useful it was in the lab.  Note that PCs, as we know them, didn’t exist yet and neither did the Internet.  Once Nick got his PhD, he worked as a chemist for a series of pharmaceutical companies where he continued to leverage his computational and mechanical talents, to their benefit.

In recent years, we occasionally got together for dinner, both of us being partial to the Mason Jar in Mahwah.  Whenever we ate, to start, Nick always ordered a club soda and fried calamari, and I always ordered a Jack Daniels on the rocks, to celebrate the occasion.

We spoke on the phone occasionally.  Among other things, we compared notes about what we knew about old friends. Nick had knowledge about so many things–anything related to pharmaceuticals obviously, but also climate change, fracking, and anything mechanical, especially, cars, and even tanks, which were a special interest of his.  More recently, he spoke at length and in detail about his medical maladies. In hindsight, I realize that what was just as impressive as his knowledge was his ability to articulate what he knew clearly and concisely. He could explain anything to anybody. 

We talked about politics only a little. Nick was a hands-on, practical guy; whereas, I tend to be more abstract and philosophical.  Politics was the one subject about which he never elaborated. Nick was deeply conservative. He knew what he believed, and that was it. No need for discussion. Whenever I expressed anything the least bit liberal, which I sometimes did, if just to draw him out, he would dismiss it with a stubborn grunt or a snort.  And I say that with affection.  

We never talked about sports.  We never discussed religion.  Someday, when we’re both hopefully in heaven, I suppose Nick will be driving a Dodge Dart with Abba or Arrival playing on the radio, and I’ll be driving a Volkswagon Beetle with Bob Dylan or Led Zeppelin blasting away.  We’ll meet for dinner at the Mason Jar equivalent in Heaven.  To start, he’ll order a club soda and fried calamari. I’ll order a Jack Daniels on the rocks.  We won’t talk politics or religion, but we’ll have plenty of other things to talk about.

Franny of "Franny And Zooey," by J.D. Salinger (1955)

Franny:

It is a vivid snapshot of a specific time, place, and social class.  Like a hard-boiled detective novel, Salinger confines himself to what his characters say and do. The characters never directly express their inner life. Initially, I found Salinger's constant mindless enumerating of visual details pointless and annoying.  I wondered if this was merely a story of the manners and customs of affluent college students in the early 1950s.  We learn that Franny is dissatisfied and frustrated with her life.  Perhaps exasperated would be a better adjective.  Moreover, she is apparently in a spiritual crisis.  But oh, the 1950s!  Everyone smokes. They have snails, frog legs, and multiple martinis for lunch.  Franny's fascination with the Eastern religions she has studied echoes a dissatisfaction with herself and her life.  It foreshadows the emergence of the Beats, with Zooey making ironic, sarcastic allusions to her becoming a bohemian.  While the depth of Franny's spiritual crisis slowly emerges over lunch, Zooey does not have the slightest interest, let alone empathy.  Indeed, he cannot think beyond the forms of manners and social manners.  But of the Jesus prayer and the end of the story, I didn't see it coming, didn't see it coming.

Side note:  I never liked Salinger's novel, The Catcher in the Rye.  We learn nothing of the inner life of Holden.  If Salinger's point is that Holden doesn't have an inner life, God save us.  When he grew up, he became Donald Trump.

The Future of the Catholic Church in the United States

My oldest son, though an atheist, does not scorn Catholicism or any other religion.  He has a fairly disinterested, that is, objective view of religion.  He thinks Catholicism in America is shot, has no future.  Indeed as Bishop Barron says, of each religion in America, we have the highest rate of people leaving.  My son says I underestimate the impact of the priest pedophile crisis.  He observes that the religious groups that are currently thriving in America are tribal--the Mormons, Orthodox Jews, the Amish, and the evangelicals.  He notes that Catholicism is the least tribal religion.  But tribalism is not an option for Catholicism, and rightfully so.   

Mercy

Except when confessing my sins, I never understood the concept of mercy. As such, it always intrigued me.  I read Pope Francis's book about mercy; and yet, I still wasn't able to get my mind around it.  I used to ask, what about repentance, don't we have to first repent in order to receive mercy?  But it says in the Bible that mercy is a gift, freely given--unconditionally--no strings attached. Mercy exists first. It is mercy that enables repentance, not the other way around. Repentance can occur only if mercy exists beforehand. My understanding of this only came after listening to a witness by someone who was sentenced to sixteen years in jail in North Carolina.  People like Nomi Network and The Sisters of Life are agents of mercy.

Chehkovian Christianity?

 Michael Sean Winters on Cornell West:

West has styled himself a “Chekhovian Christian.” He wrote that he was inspired by Chekhov because his “magisterial depiction of the cold Cosmos, indifferent Nature, crushing Fate and the cruel histories that circumscribe desperate, bored, confused and anxiety-ridden yet love-hungry people, who try to endure against all odds, rings true to me.” What that has to do with Christianity is anyone’s guess – and West gives no clues. For the Christian, the Cosmos are not cold, they are created and Nature is not indifferent, it is infused with the love of the Creator. But, never mind all that. It sounds so authoritative, doesn’t it?

Michael Sean Winters quoting Cornell West:

“Despite my Chekhovian Christian conception of what it means to be human - a view that invokes pre-modern biblical narratives,” West writes. “I stand in the skeptical Christian tradition of Montaigne, Pascal and Kierkegaard …My Chekhovian Christian viewpoint is idiosyncratic and iconoclastic. My sense of the absurdity and incongruity of the world is closer to the Gnosticism of Valentinus, Luria or Monoimos ... My intellectual lineage goes more through Schopenhauer, Tolstoy, Rilke, Melville, Lorca, Kafka, Celan, Beckett, Soyinka, O'Neill, Kazantzakis, Morrison and above all, Chekhov ... And, I should add, it reaches its highest expression in Brahms's ‘Requiem’ and Coltrane’s ‘A Love Supreme.’”

-from The National Catholic Reporter, "Cornell West: Idiot-in-Chief."  Michael Sean Winters May 19, 2011.

I am not posting this because I believe in it.  Rather, it sounds rather contrary to the idea that all of reality is a positive.  (Luigi Giussani / Communion and Liberation). But it bears thinking about. 

Cornell West - A Love Supreme/John Coltrane

"All we can do as human beings is to try and inspire one another and encourage one another and enable one another, ennoble one another. And that in and of itself is what John Coltrane called a force for good.  How do I become, based on a love supreme, a force for good in a cold and cruel world?  And a love supreme is not love in the abstract. It's a love of beauty in its concrete forms.  It's a love of goodness in its concrete forms.  It's a love of truth in its concrete forms." 

-Cornell West (Joe Rogan Experience #1325)

On Experience

From, "Disciples Called to Witness," from the USCCB (2012):

Discipleship is rooted in human experience.  It is through human experience that one enters into a dialogue with modern culture.  The human experience provides the "sensible signs" that help us come to know ourselves, one another, and God.  It is through common human experience that the Word of God is revealed to us.  These sensible signs are not abstract metaphysical signs but the concrete actions of the Holy Spirit.

When did God Breathe a Soul into Humans?

I think that when God created the universe, he made the laws of nature with the future homo sapiens in mind.  I think he made the laws such that the soul evolved in parallel with the human body, and I think we had souls prior to our becoming homo sapiens. Of the soul, I include self-awareness, consciousness, imagination, empathy, love, the ability to think in the abstract, to use symbols in communication, plus a sense of the transcendent and a desire for the infinite.

The Seven Story Mountain, by Thomas Merton

Of course, it is a wonderful conversion story. However, there was nothing in it for me, nothing I could take as an insight, advice, etc. This contrasts one hundred and eighty degrees with his other writings. Merton's writings that grabbed me were his essays on social issues and comments on the same in his journals. Admittedly, some of it is dated today, about social justice issues that were current back then or are settled now. Overall, I found Merton to be somewhat optimistic about humankind and society, in hindsight, more optimist than what was called for. But to be fair, I think his optimism is typical/expected from a person of his intelligence and talent, from the time period in which he was educated and lived. And I suspect the optimism is what society and the church needed at the time. When I was in my twenties, I read every book of Merton's that I could find in bookstores. He had an enormous influence on my thinking/spirituality/attitudes, for which I am grateful.

I see Thomas Merton and Jack Kerouac as contemporary soul brothers of a sort but ones who chose radically different lifestyles from each other. (with Kerouac failing in his spiritual journey). Merton and Kerouac attended Columbia U. and shared certain professors, most especially, the legendary English professor Mark Van Doren, mentioned in Seven Story Mountain. One quirky reason the I read/liked Seven Story Mountain is that Merton (and Kerouac) were contemporaries of my father. Without going into details, the beliefs and attitudes of my father, my uncles, and all of their friends--working-class guys from the neighborhoods of NYC who served in WWII--were all that I knew when I was growing up. As a young adolescent/adult, the discovery of people of my father's generation who thought so radically different from them was radically mind-opening.

Christianity--Quotes from the Book, Caesar and Christ (1944), by Will Durant, from the Series, The Story of Civilization

Casesar hoped to reform men by changing institutions and laws; Christ wished to remake institutions, and lesson laws, by changing men.  - p. 562

All in all, no more attractive religion has ever been presented to mankind.  It offered itself without restriction to all individuals, classes, and nations; it was not limited to one people, like Judaism, nor to the freemen of one state, like the official cults of Greece and Rome.  By making all men heirs of Christ's victory over death, Christianity announced the basic equality of men, and made transiently trivial all differences of earthly degree. To the miserable, maimed, bereaved, disheartened, and humiliated, it brought the new virtue of compassion, and an ennobling dignity; it gave them the inspiring figure, story and ethic of Christ; it brightened their lives with the hope of the coming of the Kingdom, and of endless happiness beyond the grave. To even the greatest sinners it promised forgiveness, and their full acceptance into the community of the saved. To minds harassed with the onsoluble problems of origin and destiny, evil and suffering, it brought a system of divinely revealed doctrine in which the simplest soul could find mental rest.  To men and women imprisoned in the prose of poverty and toil it brought the poetry of the sacraments and the Mass, a ritual that made every major event of life a vital scene in the moving drama of God and man. Into the moral vacuum of a dying paganism, into the coldness of Stoicism and the corruption of Epicureanism, into a world of sick brutality, cruelty, oppression, and sexual chaos, into a pacified empire that seemed to no longer need the masculine virtues or the gods of war, it brought a new morality of brotherhood, kindliness, decency, and peace.  -p. 602

Luigi Giussani and Formalism vs Authenticity

The text of Jason Blakely's remarks on March 12, 2019, during the Life of Luigi Giussani book tour:

From Formalism to Authenticity